Liberty Scales

During my last weight loss I did not weigh myself that much. Why I am torturing myself this time around with stepping on the scale everyday is beyond me. It may have to do with the fact that I am tracking what I eat more closely. But my weight fluctuates, stagnates and frustrates! So after weighing myself last week, seeing I was 3 lbs down. I am now attempting to weigh once a month or every few weeks or so. Otherwise, the change, the diet, the exercise is just frustrating because I look the scale to justify my progress. I am definitely losing inch by inch. And I am focusing on enjoying this change. Along with trying to find a job, manage mounting bills and pressures, trying to find something to eat and pay for gas, I'm going to use what I have to do what I can and make the best of it.

The news is bleak with reports of recession (which is depression for us poor folks), high gas prices, rising unemployment and high food costs. I'm a single woman with two cats and I'm scraping by to feed myself. I saw "No End in Sight" recently and it cast light on what is going on in Iraq. The shame and shock I experienced from that film is still with me. And my prayers include all those who suffer in this country and because of this country. There are good people in this land. They are, however, not in power.

Ok well I am off for another day of baking. I got an order for a cake + delivery. So I'll have a few bucks for food now! Thank you God. You are my Provider in all things!

Not a finger!

Shucks y'all I've been exercising and journaling my food and I have not lost as much as half a pound. In fact I went up two lbs during the week and now back down to 205. That does not count as a loss. This is frustrating. I'm trying not to weigh but once a week. And maybe I'll forgo that for weighing in every two weeks. I did not calculate my food yesterday which is something I cannot slack off about. And I know I'm not drinking enough water, but more than usual (peeing all night!). I also measured my body (neck, waist, low waist, booty, thighs). My clothes are a little looser and I do enjoy working out. I always have. I am not going to give up. God willing, I will lose 60lbs this year.

2008...Again

I have picked up a Tic-Tac habit which has replaced the Orbitz gum habit I used to have. Maybe this has something to do with the movie Juno I saw a couple of weeks ago. Or maybe it has to do with my oral fixation. What you need to know is that I now have a new habit on top of the other ones...including the ones I'd like to / need to break.
I am at 205 lbs. No bakery storefront. Superior debt and coming off a season of serious and intentional emotional eating. To go through what has happened the last four months would be brutal—car wrecked, evicted from home, biz partnership faltered, debt increasing. But I am in a new home, looking for work and working out again...decrease debt and weight is the goal forever.

I have lots to do today including making a real contribution to my online resume/portfolio. I need a job badly. Not sure how to pay rent, debts, etc...as usual. I am tired of this stress and need some stability.

Though I did not want to log in my food and exercise. I had to submit to it after a week of seeing the scale go down a little and then up a a lot. Also, I am not weighing myself everyday now. Just once a week.
The goal is to workout 4 to 5 days a week, burning at least 3500 calories (a pound). Eating 1200 to 1800 calories a day. I still want to get to 148.

Though I am not following KimKins or LowCarb exclusively, I am watching my calories and my carbs. I am a carb-a-holic. If I just had to watch my calories and ate anything I'd end up binging on carbs and going nuts. I'm focusing on proteins, salads, eggs, meats, veggies. Keeping it clean. Though I do "splurge" on the sugar-free jell-o, Edy's sugar-free popsicles and the tic-tacs. It is better than the bavarian creme donuts I was eating every morning. It is a wonder I am not bigger. I was eating so much junk.

Off to go sweat and suceed.